Most of the time I just sit here in my corner and think about life options and everything that is happening around me. I can’t help but ask this question. Dating at times feels like a total waste of time especially if there is no direction. Fun is never enough and love is never enough either. What is it that we want? At times I feel like I don’t know what love is, how I am supposed to love. The only thing I do best is love myself and improve myself. I may never satisfy my life but atleast I depend on myself.
Who is better to date, a boy or girl?
I mean really every girl has that one close friend who does absolutely everything for you. She takes shots on your behalf, climbs mountains to make sure you are fine, give in everything into the friendship just for happiness. We hug, we kiss, we share a bed, we sleep holding each other. We have those lesbian tendencies which can spark it up easily had the other party been bisexual well even if not. We just fool around.
We girls understand each other better. We know that it’s not same hair: there is Brazilian and Peruvian. She knows what I want and she is the one who will tell this boy what makes me tick. The first person I call when I’m hurt and crying is her, when I need a drink I call her, when I’m stressed I call her. We are always at each other’s doors talking, gossiping and laughing. What is stopping us, society?
This boy over here has to be “schooled” about me. He knows nothing about me except for my digits, where I work and my names. He doesn’t know my favorite color and what makes me smile. All he knows is that he loves me. He says he wants to take care of me so I let him. A year goes by, now I can fart in his presence and we laugh it off. We still don’t know much about each other but its promising. The friendship is not as concrete but we are working on it.
We go out for fun. I’m composed not as crazy as I get with my girl. My manners are the highest point, I can’t even sneeze. It’s really funny how this gap creates the “I miss my girl” thought. We talk about some things but not open enough to discuss our deepest fantasies. However, it all depends on how far he is willing to go. Women go with the flow, where you lead me I follow, if you are very open and talk about anything then I will do the same.
I love my girl but I love my man more. I would rather work on the friendship base to keep it strong. It’s all about giving in, loving each other and making things work.
Love is not for the faint-hearted.