14th of December, 2011

15minutes after 3 o’clock in the afternoon

Dear Diary,

It’s ten days before Christmas and I’m excited! I love Christmas. Mostly because it means that we get to make our hair pretty and dress up in our new clothes and shoes. Of course that’s after we find them. You see mummy and daddy like to hide our new stuff in different places in the living room. Once its midnight, we all come out shouting merry Christmas and after everyone has hugged everyone, we go searching! I’m usually the first to find mine before Ebuka. Ebuka is my kid brother. It’s not like he’s slow or anything but he’s still kind of a baby so I have to help him out. He’s just 3 years old. Anyway, back to Christmas. I also love all the food! Mummy usually allows me to help her out a little because I’m five and eight months (that’s almost six years old) so I’m a big girl. Everyone says I’m really brilliant and don’t act or talk my age. But I don’t know if she will let me help her this year. I don’t even know if we will cook. Mummy is sad. I know this because she is always crying. Ever since daddy travelled last three weeks. At first I thought she was just missing daddy but now I don’t know again. This is not the first time daddy is travelling. I miss him too but I don’t cry. At least not all the time. Aunty Ify even had to come over to stay with us for a while but she’s gone now. She left this morning. You remember Aunty Ify? That daddy’s sister that I don’t like very much because she’s always making me wash plates? Yes, that one. She couldn’t make mummy happy. Only daddy can I think. I just wish he would come home. Yesterday I went to meet mummy to ask her for daddy’s phone number where he is so I could call him. I would tell him off first for not calling me since before asking him to hurry and come home because mummy really misses him this time. But I couldn’t get the number because mummy started crying again and aunty Ify chased me out. I don’t know what to do. We haven’t even decorated the tree yet! Daddy and Eddy and me are usually the ones who do most of the work while mummy just sits and gives instructions. Ebuka plays with the shiny balls. So it’s really me and daddy’s thing. Last year, he even carried me on his neck so that I could hang the star at the top. When I turned back and said “Look mummy, I did it!” she had this huge smile on her face. Maybe if I put up the tree it will cheer her up? Daddy promised to be back on time for us to put it up together. If I do it alone, he may feel bad that I did it without him. But mummy is really sad. I’m sure if I tell him that I did it to make mummy happy he won’t feel bad. Okay, let me go and ask Abigail to help me.

20minutes after 8 o’clock in the night

Dear Diary,

It didn’t work. I think I even made it worse. When I turned back from Abigail’s neck after placing the star, mummy was on the floor, holding her tummy with one hand and covering her mouth with the other. And she was crying. I started crying too. I came down and ran to her but she pushed me away and ran up to her room. This doesn’t feel like Christmas at all dear diary. Tomorrow I will ask Abigail to carry me again so that I can remove the star and replace it with that decoration that is shaped like a teardrop. Now I feel like crying again. Goodnight.

15th of December, 2011

10 o’clock on the dot in the morning

Dear Diary,

Daddy is back! But I haven’t had a chance to scold him or climb on his back yet. I didn’t see him when he came in but he’s sleeping now.  I think he’s really tired because it’s been quite a while now and he’s still sleeping. . Everytime I try to get close to him so I can wake him up just for a little bit, someone pushes me back. Hmph. I don’t even know why he is sleeping downstairs and not in his room. I guess I just have to wait for him to wake up. There are so many people downstairs. I think they are here to welcome him. Mummy doesn’t seem happy though. This is strange. I thought she would be happy to see daddy but instead she’s just sitting with those people looking sad. Well at least she’s not crying anymore so that’s good I guess. And they are all wearing black. Hmmm. I feel like something isn’t right but I don’t know what it is. Why isn’t daddy sleeping in his room? I’m going back downstairs.

 

“Mummy, mummy, why are all these people here? And why is daddy sleeping in that box on the table?”

Dear diary.

They say that daddy has gone to be with Jesus. I don’t understand this because he is sleeping in that brown box. They keep saying things about spirits and bodies and… I don’t understand. I’m really scared now.

In the middle of the night

I CANNOT SLEEP

16th of December, 2011

35minutes after 7 o’clock in the morning

Dear diary

I’m going to write a letter to Jesus and ask Abigail to help me send it.

Dear Jesus.

Happy birthday! I hope your mummy got you a cake? I am sending you this letter with my book of magic spells. It was one of daddy’s presents to me last Christmas but you can have it as a birthday present just make sure you don’t tell him ok? Are you having a birthday party? Is that why my daddy is with you? Or did he just visit you because no one else wanted to visit you on your birthday? Its okay, I’m not mad at you. I promise I’m not. It’s just that mummy and ebuka and me really really miss him and would like to spend Christmas with him. I’ve never spent Christmas without him. So I’m thinking that we could come for your party too? Or just to visit you? That way, we can all have Christmas together! I think it’ll be a lot of fun, don’t you? I have to go now, I need to pee. But please write back quickly with directions to where you live so that me, mummy and ebuka can come. Please. My heart is paining me and I think that only daddy can make it betterL. Thank you. And happy birthday again.

Love, Ella.

P.S_ Don’t tell daddy we’re coming okay? So that it will be a surprise 🙂 

***

My gift to the next writer is the Christmas tree ornament shaped in the form of a teardrop that Ella wanted to replace the star st the top of the tree with. This one is for anyone who’s ever had the ‘merry’ in their Christmas taken away from them.

And to everyone, may this Christmas not be as bleak as Ella’s but filled with magical surprises that will make you smile. Have a very merry Christmas people!

@Ms_Dania 

Comments
  • coolprincee

    jesus walks wit us 🙂

    December 16, 2011
  • thetoolsman

    Wow… wow… people are going to come after you for this one.. 🙁

    December 16, 2011
    • Like this isn't your fault -___-

      December 16, 2011
  • ann

    Too depressing this morning….am in tears..

    December 16, 2011
  • xxX

    She didn't give the next writer any gift

    December 16, 2011
    • thetoolsman

      Christmas tree ornament shaped in the form of a teardrop

      December 16, 2011
  • Mia

    A tear jerker! Damn you, for making me weepy! Christmas is a time for family and it's never more heartbreaking than when your family changes from one year to the next. Beautifully written, of course it was, it's you! A fan, as always. X

    December 16, 2011
  • @sirkastiq

    Typical Dania, not even Christmas could bring in some cheer. *sigh*™

    …But I totally loved the childish innocence.

    Bravo missy.

    December 16, 2011
  • krimmedic

    Sad sad. I want happy stories!!!

    December has been pretty bleak for me,I don't need any tear-jerking stories.

    Well written.I love the diary thing…I remember the diary I had as a child.

    December 16, 2011
  • anwuli

    Awwww so sad. The story is lovely though.

    December 16, 2011
  • PreyingMantis

    Finally, the proper calculation of the days before Christmas has been amended in the story. The editor was fast.

    For some weird reason I find this story extremely appealing.

    Beautifully written.

    December 16, 2011
    • You know, one of these days you're going to have to give me a bad review lest I start to believe that you have a crush on me 🙂

      As always Mantis, a pleasure.

      December 16, 2011
      • PreyingMantis

        Write a lousy story and I'll make your day.

        A crush on Dania, wouldn't that be something.

        December 16, 2011
  • GbemiGeorge

    🙁

    December 16, 2011
  • pam

    🙁

    December 16, 2011
  • Ritzie

    Beautiful story.

    Brings back memories of my diaries as a child.

    December 16, 2011
  • annie

    I'm at work, trying hard 2 keep the tears in…(it's a difficult task cos i'm not having the best day & the weather ain't helping:() From the 1st paragraph I just knew that the Queen of the Weepies has done it again.

    Dani, thanx for a beautiful story…:)

    Now i'll just sit back & wait 4 Jibola to make me wail. Also, as per ususal. 🙂

    December 16, 2011
  • Awlsayntz

    Beautiful.

    December 16, 2011
  • bringingBackMemories

    Sad story,this just made me cry at work. Reminds me of when I lost my Parents in a car crash at About the same age (6) I didn't understand, but my Aunt just kept Crying and telling me my Parents had traveled back to the UK without me to get surprise Toys. I also Remember them "Sleeping" in the sitting room during the wake keeping and wondering why they looked so odd. Except mine wasn't Xmas though. It was in September 1992

    December 16, 2011
    • I'm very sorry about that. 🙁

      December 16, 2011
    • Oh wow, both your parents at the same time?! That must've been tough.

      *big hug*

      December 16, 2011
  • Now I'm upset.

    December 16, 2011
  • RiCDiZzLe

    🙁

    December 16, 2011
  • minini

    :(… I love

    December 16, 2011
  • Like when I was reading a book about mental prayer when I was much younger, and the only analogy was that of a little child telling Jesus at the chapel that he's going to the beach, and he goes "I'll have a lot of fun you'll see, I won't let the waves take me." So simple I couldn't read the book anymore.

    I put a post on my blog about the loss of the Christmas cheer I used to have as a child, and why things are so different, how dark and difficult 2011 has been and how hard it is to look forward to better days in 2012. The rhythm of hope beating silently in my heart and in the hearts of many around the world seems to be all we can hold on to.

    I wish everyone reading this a 2012 of joy, peace of mind and happiness that no trace of sadness can overshadow. Merry Christmas everyone.

    December 16, 2011
  • Hey people that have commented so far (:D),

    I would reply each comment individually but I'm dealing with struggle network at the moment.

    I'm really honoured and thoroughly humbled by all the compliments. Thank you.

    I also feel like I should apologise for making most of us teary eyed 🙁 🙂

    All I'll say is blame it on the TNC people 😐

    December 16, 2011
  • lade

    i read …..

    i cried……

    i loved it .

    December 16, 2011
    • laydeelaracraft

      mee too. av got sniffles

      December 16, 2011
  • MYSTERIous

    So well written. Got me teary eyed and left me so mushy. May the Joy of Christmas never depart from our homes in Jesus name. Merry Xmas to everyone in advance

    December 16, 2011
  • laydeelaracraft

    so sad…there is no good/ easy way to tell kids about death especially when most adult dont really understand it either

    December 16, 2011
  • intears

    now the AC in the office is too cold and im having goose pimples allover…

    Gr8 job, ma'am… u really do write well

    December 16, 2011
  • hola

    :'( sad…

    December 16, 2011
  • Saddening… This story brings u back to earth… Its not always rainbows and butterflies for every one during Christmas. Ella's innocence is just so heart wrenching….

    December 16, 2011
  • Nono

    is it weird that I had a smile on my face at the end? beautifully written as always Dania.

    December 16, 2011
  • anittta

    Nice one….the child is so innocent….:(

    May we all have a merry and not sad christmas!

    i loved it!

    December 16, 2011
  • ibetapassmynebo

    ( -̩̩̩͡˛ -̩̩̩͡ ) ( -̩̩̩͡˛ -̩̩̩͡ ) ( -̩̩̩͡˛ -̩̩̩͡ )

    God. . .

    December 16, 2011
  • Olatunji

    Lost my dad this year…Ella's loss feels far worse though.#wiping tears off face#

    December 16, 2011
    • I'm really sorry about your dad. Here you go: *big warm hug*

      December 16, 2011
  • @Ms_Dania:

    Typical reason I love Ms_Dania ('s writeup). Awesome. Brilliant, even in its simplicity.

    Sigh.

    May the joy of Christmas find those who need it the very most, this season.

    December 16, 2011
  • This got me all teared up. It's Christmas time. We want happy stories. Good write up. The first person narrative was great. I like the way you wrote it from a child's perspective.

    December 16, 2011
  • shadeyB

    Wow! Typical typical dania. Love it tho

    December 16, 2011
  • XTRA

    I loved this…made me teary-eyed tho'… 🙁

    U're amazing,Dania…

    December 16, 2011
  • bykerboi

    Dania Y????? You just took me back to christmas d year my father died. 🙁

    Nicely written tho I must say.

    December 16, 2011
    • I remember 🙂

      *hugssssssss for dayssssss*

      December 16, 2011
  • TheresTwoOfMee

    Oh wow!! I almost cried. This is lovely. Sad but a lovely story nonetheless. 🙁

    December 16, 2011
  • blackman

    Oh dear!!

    Great writing!!

    December 16, 2011
  • thinktank

    What were you expecting when you ask the queen of sad stories to write a sadness-themed story for Christmas?

    Abeg, Jesus can arrange to have Ella attend his birthday party.

    In fact, I'm inviting her on his behalf

    JESUS BIRTHDAY BASH EXTRAVAGANZA!!

    VENUE: ELLA's DREAMS

    DATE: DEC 25, 2011

    SPECIAL GUESTS: G.O.D., Moses, Ella's Daddy, Lazarus and the Heavenly all-stars.

    HOST: Mc SOLOMON

    AND FEATURING: DJ SANTA

    BY INVITATION ONLY.

    December 16, 2011
    • THIS GUY!!! 😀

      December 16, 2011
    • I wasn't teary eyed when I wrote this but for some reason, reading all the comments made me so.

      Thank you Wole for giving us reason to laugh 😀

      That said, its Queen of the Weepies (thank you Annie) not Queen of Sad. Since that label has refused to go away, it might as well be nice sounding 😐

      December 16, 2011
      • annei

        Lol. U'r welcome. 😀 *now off to trademark the name, might as well make some money while i'm at iy abi*

        December 20, 2011
  • farida

    you know i actually ran here (forget the fact that LASTma hired me for some hours) hoping to read something merry from dania as per xmas story and all but…*sigh*…she still had to be dania. the one to pass the tear drop Christmas ornament to someone else…i've never even noticed any Christmas tree ornament shaped like a teardrop before…if that person is not jibola, i wonder how he/she will cope.

    As usual, well done Dania. it was a sad but sweet read.

    December 16, 2011
  • farida

    @think thank lolz at your post…Ella's dreams indeed.

    chai Ella's innocence is something else…she actually said "my heart is paining me"

    December 16, 2011
  • Ngeezee

    Beautifully sad. . . 🙁

    *sniffs*

    December 16, 2011
  • Lovely @Ms_Dania….this story is marvellous, filled with so much pain, childish ignorance and hope…#ILoveIt!!!!

    December 16, 2011
  • Xymon

    Wow!! So touchin' even an emotionless person like me felt somethin'.

    This writer deserves some sort of recognition.

    December 16, 2011
    • 55 comments and counting? That's enough recognition for me 🙂

      Thank you.

      December 16, 2011
  • dee

    Really nice story

    Despite the fact that i already knew the end of the story. there was just something about it that made me keep reading it.

    Beautiful piece

    Merry Christmas everyone. it wud b the best so far for everyone IJN

    December 16, 2011
  • Again, thank you everyone. For not only reading but taking the time out to drop a comment.

    Christmas is a happy season for most people but like Brainwhiz said, sometimes it's not always rainbows. Life can throw us unexpected curve balls that pull the rug from under our feet. Ella's story was birthed out of a desire to reflect that and to connect with all those who've had their 'merry' stolen before.

    I really do wish us all a very merry christmas.

    December 16, 2011
  • cikk0

    Thankfully, I'd already submitted my entry before reading this. I'd have restarted writing. Very nice. And sad. I could use some sad right about now anyway…

    December 16, 2011
  • Mcnierdy

    I'm holding back the tears. Queen of the Weepies, what hast thou done to my stone cold heart? I enjoyed this story a lot, the innocence just gets you. And it reminds me of my sister whose name is Ella and who is the same age as the Ella in the story.

    December 17, 2011
  • McNierdy

    @ThinkTank, your comment is hilarious. Strictly by invitatin. LMAO at McSolomon

    December 17, 2011
  • @ZazaFierce

    Kai! @ThinkTank eliminated all the sadness for me with his Jesus' Party. LOL. Dania your writing is really nice.

    December 17, 2011
  • Dania……….making a thug cry. Not cool

    December 17, 2011
  • Hayeslikeissac

    You took childish innocence and rewrote the play book on death and how a child sees it…..Mz D I applaud your innovation and imagination.

    To those who have lost loved ones over the course of the year or beyond, with you good here and a brave heart, only we know what heals us after we lose those we hold dear….

    December 17, 2011
  • *sigh* Ada…why? Why must you always live up to your title, and yes it's Queen of Sad (weepies bawo, bawses don't weep. Hmph).

    This story was beautiful men. But hey, it's a Dania story, it's gotta be.

    December 17, 2011
  • Highlandblue

    Something about children and their innocence just gets to me. Something about children and how they lose their innocence just gets to me. Thank you Dania, for getting to me.

    December 17, 2011
  • georgeenah

    I just had to read this story this great morning when i'm questioning everything.Beautifully written hun, this is one of the reasons i never wait for reviews before reading your posts. :*

    December 17, 2011
  • deevagal

    as always, i love dania's stories… but y so sad?

    *sigh*

    December 17, 2011
  • Nas

    i really like this one bro and i will pay for reading it

    December 17, 2011
  • FreshPrinz

    Awesome….as always. Grab a tear duct and squeeze till no eye is dry….ur specialty…lol.

    December 18, 2011
  • peachez

    Wow!!! Ella's innocence makes me wanna cry. Good piece mz dania

    December 18, 2011
  • Terdoh

    I didn't cry.

    *wipes face*

    I'm gangsta.

    December 18, 2011
  • Walexemma

    For me, its actually been a long time It felt like Christmas. Think twas like 2000. In 2001, mum was shot by MOPOL (accidental discharge) and 2002, my younger brother was sick and went to see Jesus 2 days after Christmas & The season has never really been d same again. I hope this yr will be different.

    Nice Sad Piece BTW.

    December 18, 2011
  • 🙁 🙁 🙁

    December 18, 2011
  • Frankices

    I wasn't teary-eyed. I wept. Heartily.

    This is… Wow.

    I hav never experienced the death of a loved one. I don't know the pain. I imagine it, but I don't KNOW. May it remain so. Pls God? Thank U.

    December 19, 2011
  • joeblack

    Never posted a comment on here b4 so this is pretty much unfamiliar terrain but cldnt resist d urge to drop a few lines cos I can relate to Ella's situation.

    Xmas was "merry" until 4 days later when Dad had a fatal accident….the first few months of the next year didn't mk any sense to me & I didn't think I cld get thru it. Woke up regularly at d wee hours of d morn' to cries from my kid brother who was Ella's age at d time… Death is a bitch!!!! 🙁

    December 19, 2011
  • @Ms_Dania..i dont know why i took so long in commenting, i guess it was the beauty and innocence of the post that kept me..I love it

    He came so that we will go a place where there are no more tears, its good that you reminded us that as far as we are here on earth, there will be tears and heartaches..Thanks

    December 19, 2011
  • MzLucyM

    🙁 this is soo beautiful yet soo sad.

    December 20, 2011
  • *sigh* This Dania sef…

    I can relate a little too well with Ella

    Beautiful, just beautiful…

    December 20, 2011
  • shade

    This absolutely just made me cry… So sad…

    December 22, 2011
  • Adeee

    SO SO LOVELY…. Almost cried…so touching

    August 6, 2013
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