Words I’d Never Get to Say

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Once upon a time, when I was the Greek god, Atlas, and I ruled Olympus, not Zeus. I was at peace. You were my Hera and I would gladly leave the pillars that stopped the heavens from crushing the earth to be by your side because YOU were my heaven and my world. I lived for me but my life had meaning because you were there to share it with me. Every good time lasted an eternity and every bad time was gone in a blink. We lived a life that even married people might have been jealous of.

From our first date at ICM, to the time when you fell asleep in my arms every night and I was privileged to watch you dress up in the mornings as you prepared for work. For the record, you look stunning when you dress corporately. I remember that you’d come back to bed and lie with me for a while just because leaving me was the hardest decision you had to make that day. I remember because on some days, you ended up not going to work and we’d spend the day watching movies, telling each other the silliest stories and actually working from home. We’d send in the completed work via email and get feedback saying it was well done. We knew then that was something else unique we had; we were an amazing team. We braced every storm together. You were my anchor during that period with my parents and I’d come over to your office to cheer you up when you were having a shitty day.

I remember our first kiss. Thank God for truth or dare. I remember how our ‘minute’ was a lot longer than usual. I remember the stolen kiss by the kitchen door frame. I remember slow dancing with you and the kiss that followed. Your knees buckled and I forgot how to breathe. Every time we kissed, it was magical. Every. Single.Time.

Remember when your brother and I teamed up and I surprised you with a visit? I remember because your blushed a red that rivaled the color of sweater you had on and you just wouldn’t stop smiling. Remember the time when you cried in my arms when your iPod fell and you feared it was broken? I remember because I still have the mascara stain on the white shirt.

Remember the  anniversary at the arcade? I still have the extra token we didn’t use. Remember the 21 birthday gifts? I use the watch, wallet and belt everyday. Remember… I remember it all. You showed me a love that is so beautiful, it scares me.

But life wouldn’t let us be soulmates in peace. It demanded its gratuity for discovering the fountain of love. It was angry – no, jealous – that we could fast and pray together, go for vigils and genuinely enjoy being in God’s presence together so it sent Gia, the titan, who also happens to be my mother, our way. Fast forward 3 months after you decided to focus on you because sticking with me was too uncertain because of the curve ball life threw at us, I’m still here, missing you like the sun misses the flower and dying slowly every time I see you on my TL and I can’t say a word to you.

Do you know you’re still the first person I want to call when something amazing happens and its your eyes I want to look into when I need reassurance that things would be alright? I miss your lips. I miss hearing you say, “hey baby”. I miss watching you fight the blush when I tell you how beautiful you are. I miss my manicure and facial inspections. I miss the feel of your fingers between mine. I miss feeling slightly jealous when your eyes light up when you see something exciting. I miss grabbing you hand to show that you’re mine when the guys are drooling at you because of those blue sweatpants or the Aztec print ones. I miss the feeling of elation when you hover jealously when some other babe has my attention.

I miss you and I need you. That’s why when you DM’d me last night and said you can’t even be friends with me because its not safe and because you’re not over me yet, I died again. Impossible, because I’ve been dead since July 19. So when you said you can try to be friends only if I promise never to mention our past, I dived in like a man dying in the desert who just saw an oasis.

I need you in my life. Friend or girlfriend, it doesn’t matter right now as long as you’re in it. It might seem like a foolish decision to some but if they understood the pain I lived in without you, it might be enlightening to them. You might choose to leave me again tomorrow when being ‘just friends’ with me is too hard and I’d die again but its a gamble I’m willing to take. I have to take the chance.

I fear I have set myself up for the kind of pain you only read about in novels; The kind you see in movies that make you thankful that its just a movie ‘cos God himself must sin to allow that kind of pain to exist in this world. God doesn’t sin. He allows for such to exist so that the leap of faith you take when you choose to love someone is all the more exhilarating if you fly.

I love you and I am in love with all that you are. You already know this but I still like to remind you. So if this is the last time I can tell you those three words, as you read them, close your eyes and hear me say them to you. After now, they would be disguised but don’t be fooled. Every time I say “how are you”, “how was your day”, “I’m bored” or any other phrase that is a combination of the 26 alphabets, know that I’m saying it again. I love you. That’s why I have grabbed the chance to be friends with you again.

I need you. Its that simple.

So cheers to our friendship, cheers to a new beginning.

So, “how are you?” That’s how friends act, right?

Your new friend, Me.

Image via Elephant Journal

Comments
  • Slim

    So so beautiful…maybe cos I totally relate…maybe cos of the also beautiful soundtrack

    November 20, 2015
  • Priscilla Joy

    awww, this is simply too beautiful. first??

    November 20, 2015
    • Cavey

      *chuckle*
      No, not the first but just because you think its beautiful, ???

      November 20, 2015
      • Slim

        Seriously???

        November 24, 2015
      • Inner slim girl

        I need the musical piece, link please

        September 22, 2017
  • JADE

    awwwwww!

    November 20, 2015
  • Teliov

    Lovely piece. Music certainly helped. But Lovely still

    November 20, 2015
  • A

    Wow! Just wow!

    When I read the first paragraph, I almost closed the page and I’m glad I didn’t. This was such a powerful read. It was intense and so full of emotion. I tried to imagine that pain and man, it must really hurt.

    Is this real or fiction?

    November 20, 2015
    • Cavey

      My dear A, its as real as this Lagos heat (if you’re in Lagos) ☺

      November 20, 2015
      • A

        AH! The heat is very real.

        I want to give you a bone-crushing hug.

        November 20, 2015
        • A

          Also, what did the mother do that is so bad they can’t walk through it?

          November 20, 2015
          • Cavey

            Dearest A, that is a tale not meant to be aired so publicly. If we ever do meet, I’d tell you…after i get my hug though! ???

            November 20, 2015
      • Ray

        Hi Cavey. Your piece is amazing and Your bio makes me want to know you.

        November 20, 2015
        • Cavey

          Thank you, Ray, for liking my piece.
          And about wanting to know me, you should know that you have this black boy furiously trying not to blush ?

          November 20, 2015
      • Cheers to your new friendship!!! 🙁 I hope you don’t suffer too much from it. Such intolerable cruelty.

        November 20, 2015
      • Bloodstone

        Cavey….this is an amazing piece.And knowing its real…wow!Its good tho that you had a taste of love that amazing…and from your write-up and bio,that chick is missing out.I wish you all the best..and your very own fairytale ending.

        November 21, 2015
      • Inner slim girl

        I cried

        September 22, 2017
      • Inner slim girl

        I cried. It’s too familiar.

        September 22, 2017
  • A

    I went back to listen to the music and *sigh*

    November 20, 2015
  • Morenike

    Awwwwwwwww, me likey… brought back a lot of memories… Nice one

    November 20, 2015
  • pearl

    *sniffs. I couldn’t read without the tears. This cannot be fiction, your passion is so real and you brought out different emotions in me, I can’t help but remember…
    *wipes tears
    Thank You

    November 20, 2015
    • Cavey

      It’s not fiction…it’s very very real.
      I’m sorry if i brought back memories you’d rather keep buried. Please forgive me. I’d never wish for anyone to relieve the pain ?

      November 20, 2015
      • pearl

        Its ok Cavey, I just hope you move on quickly and don’t get stock.
        Wish you all the strenght to find another to love, you know why? Your passion is so strong and real.

        November 20, 2015
  • Ray

    I don’t have that song so I didn’t read with music.
    But every word is stuck with me now.

    How a piece can be so personal and still feel like it is for multitudes to read.

    When you read words you never could find the courage or power to say to someone…

    When you love someone so Much, its feel like they are an extra layer of skin that you can’t peel off. So much that you don’t even understand it yourself. So much, you don’t want to stop even though reason says you should….

    And then, they walk away….

    Someday, you finally make peace with their decision, although like every other thing, you just don’t understand it.

    You want to run to them with news of every thing they are missing in your life but you know that’s no longer allowed.

    But you just can’t stop being friends cos you know you need them, you feel like you will go astray if they are not there to keep you in check, when you just feel like a drift from them is a step towards insanity. But no one understands it, not even that person does. Then, you figure, no one needs to understand. So long as they stay, the world is not gonna turn upside down.

    November 20, 2015
    • Cavey

      I left a link to download the song on my twitter TL (@AsToldByCavey). The song makes the words even more…

      Some, you can make peace with…and there are some that you can never, no matter how hard you try.
      Love is beautiful….but sometimes, its devastating.

      November 20, 2015
      • Iyanu

        Very true @love is beautiful but sometimes devastating… I wish you all the best. This post makes me think

        February 9, 2016
  • I’m currently clapping with my hands and feet. This is just too goooood. I can almost feel the emotions in the words, plus I can picture myself writing these words to someone but there is no one, and the only person I could have written these words to doesn’t want to even talk to me. *sigh* this life.
    It could have been Hera, It should have been Hera, I had my own Hera, sometime that, with time, I would gladly let the world burn for but life is a bitch and exactly this (you decided to focus on you because sticking with me was too uncertain) happened. There was no even “trying to be friends” for me, the world just stopped spinning and the heavens closed up before it could fully open again. But we move on still, whichever way we can.

    “Every time I say “how are you”, “how was your day”, “I’m bored” or any other phrase that is a combination of the 26 alphabets, know that I’m saying it again. I love you” has to be the best line for me in the entire post.

    P.S you really messed greek mythology with the twisting of the tree, but I can understand that you needed to make a play on “holding up the heavens”, “ruler of olympus”and “Hera, queen of the Heavens”, and the post was goooood that we can ignore it.

    November 20, 2015
    • Cavey

      Thank you Nosa for clapping with hands and feet. You do realise tho, that ‘she’ might want to talk to you but she’s just scared right? #JustSaying

      P.S. Hopefully, none of the greek gods are regulars on TNC so i think I’m safe. ?

      November 20, 2015
      • Scared? Well, there is nothing I can do about that. if the fear drove her to walk away, then I guess she doesn’t trust me enough to believe that i would understand and be willing to face the fear together with her. Nothing I can do about that

        November 20, 2015
        • Cavey

          Not true. There’s something you can do.
          Women need reassurance a lot more than men. She needs you to assure her that her fear is unfounded and remind her that what she feels for you is greater than the fear of whatever.

          November 20, 2015
          • This is all based on a big “IF”.
            I can’t do anything about something i know nothing about. So if she was afraid and wanted reassurance, i would have graciously given her “IF” I knew. But in a situation where a thousand words fly yet nothing gets said or heard, the lights just go out without a warning, no flicker whatsoever and all chances of talking are cut off, (not by You),
            There is nothing you can do but keep moving

            November 20, 2015
  • Straight from the heart, so pure. Love is a delicate matter and sometimes all we need is not what we get. This is too good ???????????? well done.

    November 20, 2015
  • MsHavilayh

    This is still beautiful. Honestly I’m afraid of downloading the song. This piece is too much. I hope you write about many happy things soonest. ??

    November 20, 2015
  • june

    This brought tears to my eyes, like the music the words everything wooooooow. I couldn’t even help it, woooow, woooow, woooow, so pure, so deep, so so so so touching, as i type i am still awed.
    If this is real can you both just come back, whatever it is just come back, this kind of love is so HARD to come back why let it go?

    November 20, 2015
    • Cavey

      Dear June,
      I haven’t let go…not even close…but sometimes, you don’t tell someone to fight for you else you wouldn’t get 101%. Sometimes, they have to realize the need to fight themselves. Its the only way to be sure what you have is worth fighting for…when both people fight for it.

      November 20, 2015
      • Aren’t you afraid she’s reading this and getting stirred up all over agin? And do you imagine the pain she’s also living with?. Why can’t y’all just get back together? *throws tantrum*

        November 20, 2015
        • Cavey

          Why? She needs to want to fight for us for us to have a chance. And right now, she’s not there yet. Just got her back as a friend. I’d take that for now…baby steps
          *chuckle*
          For your tantrum ???

          November 21, 2015
  • emily

    God please PLEASE help them solve their issues.
    Thank you.

    November 20, 2015
  • Sparks and Tingles

    Awwwww….I could feel what he felt, I woulda cried if it is okay for men to cry. I wonder what the mummy did to cause this much pain. Do you want us to cook up our own theories? Beautiful piece man!

    November 20, 2015
    • Cavey

      Sparks & Tingles,
      It is very okay for men to cry. ‘Slong as its not over some chick flick, you won’t lose guy points.

      November 20, 2015
  • julibravo

    ok. love you. bye

    November 20, 2015
  • Frankices

    I started reading and saw greek god. Olympus and Zeus. And stopped. I have a huge aversion to anything ‘gods-related’.

    But then I saw the comments and went back to read. With music.

    Its sucks. This life. This ‘Love’. But we learn. Smile. Try/pretend to move on. Smile. And one day maybe the internal screaming stops. And maybe we get to the point of not feeling like dying… Maybe.

    Anything with violins. YES. Thank u for the song. 🙂

    November 20, 2015
    • Cavey

      You’re welcome.
      Music helps me express myself better so subsequent pieces would have a suggested score/soundtrack to go with them.

      November 20, 2015
  • Dark

    Heaven knows I crave this type of love

    November 20, 2015
  • Sur_kasma

    Hey Cavey, come for a hug sugar. This was me for YEARS, years I tell you, up until a scant month ago, when I took the decision to move the heck on, because I was being unfair to myself pining over someone who I couldn’t be with.

    We had broken up for about 3 years but we still spoke everyday, gave extravagant gifts and basically carried on like we were together except we couldn’t be seen. We did a lot of sneaking around because we couldn’t let our families know that we still saw each other because they had seen how much we had suffered during our initial break up.

    We gave affirmations of love to each other regularly but couldn’t commit to re-entering a relationship. Then a couple of months ago, I called him and asked to get back together and he gave some tripe about not being able to give of himself as fully as he did when we were together.

    It hurt like a mothertrucker. I felt like the break up all over again, rubbed raw.

    I raged for 2 weeks, sore and unable to talk to anyone without snapping, then sank into despair, barely eating. About 6 weeks ago, I recollected myself and poured my heart out to my sister, who assured me that I will recover, that I will pick up my life and find happiness.

    Recently, he reached out again and it’s taking all of me not to sink into old habits and be all “hey babe”.

    But I’m determined this time. I have recently made major changes and despite moving closer to him, I haven’t caved and asked to see him and I shan’t.

    I swear to you, it is not easy. Actually, my knee-jerk reaction on reading your beautiful piece was to send him a link, you said everything I wanted to, so much more beautifully than I ever did. Mine often involved yelling and tears and an alarming amount of snot.

    But I shan’t. I will pull up my big girl panties and bloody move on, because if I’m not good to myself, then how can I expect someone else to? I hope you find happiness too, with her or with someone else, but be kind to yourself and sometimes that means cauterizing that one, the one you thought was the one from your life.

    Kisses and Golden Crepes,
    Sur. x

    November 20, 2015
    • Cavey

      Thank you. I’d take you up on that hug someday.
      Send me an email sometime? I’d like to talk to you ?

      November 20, 2015
  • Bkae

    ??? If this is something that really happened it’s extremely sad it had to end. The way he paid attention to every detail of moments they shared together makes it all the more beautiful. But I guess forever don’t last.
    Beautiful piece

    November 20, 2015
  • I loved reading every bit of this.

    The song gave a wonderful effect too

    November 20, 2015
  • Nae

    The elegance in this piece exceeds the extent of my vocabulary (words can’t describe).

    November 20, 2015
  • Rex

    Very beautiful piece Cavey. I felt the emotions behind the words.
    I’m still searching for that special someone tho.

    November 20, 2015
  • lade

    “From our first date at ICM, to the time when you fell asleep in my arms every night”..& “I remember our first kiss. Thank gawd for truth or dare. I remember how our ‘minute’ was a lot longer than usual. I remember the stolen kiss by the kitchen door frame. I remember slow dancing with you and the kiss that followed. Your knees buckled and I forgot how to breathe. Every time we kissed, it was magical. Every. Single.Time.” …BEAUTIFUL..

    November 20, 2015
  • Nelo

    Cavey, your words took me back in time.
    He called me ‘Etha’ a shorter name for Earth Angel. I was in love with him. Madly in love if there ia anything like that. But as fate would have it, our love ended. I wept.
    Two years after, he came back but by then a lot had happened to make my heart metamorphose. I was not in a relationship but I didn’t want to be put on like a dress-(to be changed at will).

    On 22nd Nov. I will mark 7 yrs WA with a guy I can’t stop loving. We will growold together and nothing will change that.

    I wish you Love.

    November 20, 2015
  • king

    Awesome piece. My love life played out a similar scenario, I was so draped in love, took down every detail of her, I knew how many inhalation of air she took per minute, my happiness was sown around her face. confidence I exhibited was well powered by her love, I knew she was my hera too. But life happened, took me 3yrs to try getting back on track (cnt say if I am actually over her). We cnt even say hi to each other right now. But I did realise letting her go see the world was the best thing I could do for her. Definitely a thin line btw love and hate.

    November 20, 2015
  • YEYE of LAGOS

    Nice piece,
    I remember everything too
    I feel like crying…

    November 20, 2015
  • Olushola

    However different these stories are, I see the connection between this post and “love lockdown”. This post is the aftermath of Steve’s (apologies for the name) trouble and concerns when the closest voices drive your live and decisions. Seem impossible to find happiness on your own without people telling you how to live your life, especially when they have no grip on theirs.

    Fear of this kind of loss repeating itself is why people “lock up” or just completely stay away from love

    With or without the music, this is a good read, I feel you and relate to the pain 100% sir. I hope you move on, heal and find happiness.

    November 20, 2015
  • Riky

    Beautiful piece ???
    Very, very beautiful ???

    November 20, 2015
  • Dumo

    Cavey abi what’s ur name bia who sent you to me today. This your story + dat song. oh! lawd I was taken back to those innocent years when I was in love. please don’t be a coward like me who just let her go. If it takes you crossing 12 oceans to get her back Pls do It. if she has a new person there’s something called military coup. Overthrow the current president and become the president. I don’t care how you do it just get her back.

    November 20, 2015
    • Cavey

      ??????. TNC sent me to you.
      Oshey, thank you. So, if it ever gets to that stage would you be my coup strategist?

      November 21, 2015
      • DUMO

        CAVEY i say I dey your back like Zuma Rock .

        November 21, 2015
      • #SeizeTheBae bro. Seize the bae!

        November 24, 2015
  • The crush lady

    I spent the day in an extremely busy shopping centre. Saddled with lots of shopping bags and a big travel luggage, i definitely wasn’t planning on opening any mail from TNC at that point in time . I can’t explain how i mistakenly opened the mail, all i remember is I had to look for a quiet spot to finish reading it. I didn’t have any WiFi to leave a comment immediately so here am I.
    That was excellently written, Cavey.The love and passion so palpable, pain almost tangible.
    I pray for God’s direction for you both because that type of love is truly hard to come by these days. You have yourself a new fan here:). All the best. *Big hug*

    November 21, 2015
  • serical

    this is so beautiful…. I can’t completely relate to this kind of deep love but I know what it means to be hurt so I can relate with the story
    I hope it works out for you and if it’s meant to be you and your ‘Hera’ would come back together

    I didn’t read it with the music.. maybe I’ll do that later

    November 21, 2015
  • thetoolsman

    Awesome stuff.

    November 21, 2015
    • Cavey

      Noticed by Toolsman himself!
      Gracias!

      November 21, 2015
  • Poptenor

    …you DM’d me last night and said you
    can’t even be friends with me because its
    not safe and because you’re not over me
    yet, I died again… *sniffs* The feels, *sniffs* man must not fall hand though but then again, abeg lemme! Let the dam break, let the waters drown me… *sigh*

    November 21, 2015
  • Temi

    When I tried to explain this to my friends, even the closest ones, they didn’t understand. This is everything I went through, to the last word. Such passion, I didn’t notice my tears until the end.

    November 21, 2015
  • Omotawler

    This was beautifully written. I read it as I woke this morning, and am like wow! It reminds me of my own predicament too, it’s hard to move on, that’s just the simple truth, very hard. Hard to find someone u could fall in love with like that again. But u just have to pick urself up and do it. I hope to find true love again and I hope u do too. P:S: This is the best piece I have read since I have come to appreciate write ups.

    November 21, 2015
    • Cavey

      I hope you find true love again too.
      For me? *chuckle* none will be like this, sadly. But it’s not over yet and I’d hope n pray. Besides, sometimes best friends do end up together right?

      November 21, 2015
  • Omotawler

    Yea, they could. But sometimes, its better they just stay as friends.

    November 21, 2015
  • obema

    This touched me to the core…I can relate. Just hold on… and take it one minute at a time….time heals all wounds, a minute at a time.

    November 21, 2015
  • stubborn geh

    I had decided not to comment cos this piece hit too close to home,I sank into depression. I went into zombie mode a few minutes after reading it and I thought I’d get over it by morning but I didn’t.
    maybe its cos i feel like the girl in the article. I have experienced love like this…not as sweet but really close…and why do mothers always have to be d tool to destroy such bliss.
    we are friends now but its the most tasking thing I’ve ever done in my life. I’VE tried to be strong but its impossible when he forgets and he pecks me on my forehead or catches my yawn or the extra sweet things he does and i don’t blame him when he forgets. Its just the way it is. Its just d way life is.
    That’s cos life without the other person is unimaginable, unthinkable, bitter.
    Cavey, just know, if she tells u the whole friendship thingy is not working out, she’d die too. Even more than you probably will and its not cos she’s tough or strong or cares any less.
    i can’t even compose my comment to flow as i would like but i do hope u get her back. Don’t
    wish me the same tho. His mum is one obstacle i never want to encounter again.

    November 21, 2015
    • DUMO

      STUBBORN GEH don’t u know where mountain of fire and miracles ministries is? My dear you need to pray against his mother o! Ah! wetin na she wan marry her son?

      November 21, 2015
    • Cavey

      Dear stubborn geh,
      I ask only one thing…do not fall the hand of your name. Be stubborn!
      Listen, i don’t know what his mother did or how terrible she might be but…is the fear of his mother greater than your feelings for him? If not, f**king fight for your man!

      November 21, 2015
      • stubborn geh

        Maybe I will cavey, maybe I will.
        @ dumo, prayer warrior tinz abi? Oya naa. Lets get there.

        November 22, 2015
        • Cavey

          Good.
          That’s a step in the right direction.
          I do hope it works out for you too.

          November 23, 2015
  • Chinedov

    Such a beautiful piece.

    The good (if not bad) thing about it is that it’s so painfully relatable.

    November 21, 2015
  • Joe

    Timi……Why did you have to bring this up? Now you’ve got me thinking.??

    November 21, 2015
  • AIR

    really beautiful piece….brings back so many memories…as if you where talking directly to moi….

    November 21, 2015
  • Pwreety moimoi

    Can’t help reading and reading again. And I’ll tell you again this is more than beautiful. Even in pain sweet words still flow. I hope and pray your hello never turns to a goodbye. I love this piece, I love the music. And yes I’m stealing some phrases too?. Stay strong cavey

    November 22, 2015
  • *exhales* and you had to rip me apart! *holds hands up and exhales*

    November 22, 2015
  • Remmy

    Simply beautiful

    November 22, 2015
  • Awesome,divine,fantastic… I’ve forgotten my adjectives.This is good cavey,and you should be glad you’ve had love this sweet,i hope if all works out for you.Xoxo

    November 22, 2015
  • I am proud of how far you’ve come Casey, I hope Herald reads this, I hope she also finds a way to tell her story. It’s hard when a mother rejects you even tho its for flimsy reasons but in the end, you just have to be strong and Pray she’s strong enough to be fine

    November 23, 2015
  • Miss James

    My emotions have been set ablaze…heading to twitter for the link so I can listen and read again…and again.

    November 23, 2015
  • kiki

    Awww ???….

    November 23, 2015
  • Azaria

    I read the piece yesterday, but I listened to the song this morning.. both are hauntingly beautiful. The writer has an amazing way with words.

    November 23, 2015
  • Buzz

    I’ve never commented on a post on tnc but you just had to make me. with tears and this aching pain in a place I thought was completely healed. just like Chinedov said ” The good (if not bad) thing about it is that it’s so painfully relatable.”….
    I hope you find a way to remain together if not for anything else but for those of us who lost something beautiful

    November 23, 2015
    • thetoolsman

      Welcome 🙂

      November 23, 2015
  • Ifunanya

    Wow,I so relate with this….beautiful write up

    November 23, 2015
  • Judith

    This was very touching, I absolutely loved it and I hope that she realises how much you love her. It would be a shame for all this love to go to waste..

    November 23, 2015
  • Tori

    So beautiful. So passionate. I love it.

    November 23, 2015
  • Jane Doe

    “…After now, they would be disguised but don’t be fooled. Every time I say “how are you”, “how was your day”, “I’m bored” or any other phrase that is a combination of the 26 alphabets, know that I’m saying it again. I love you…”

    This broke the dam. I couldn’t even stop the tears again. Cavey, you are evil for the song. You just like making people cry. The combination if your words and the song is…heart wrenching! To cavey’s girl…if you ever see this; keep.this.man! This kind of love is almost impossible to find! If you haven’t realized it now then…i don’t know.

    November 23, 2015
  • Salz

    Awesome piece coupled with the tune from Piano Boys.

    Ogbeni Cavey
    But in actual sense, can you cope with being friends again cos certainly there’ll be restrictions and dotted lines.

    November 23, 2015
  • Bey

    The realness, depth and passion in this piece is too much for my fragile heart. I know I can relate, having a loved one and then next thing they are gone.
    Keep the faith Bruv, this doesn’t look like the end of this fairytale.

    November 23, 2015
  • Can't be bothered

    Nope, no. I couldn’t read it to the end. Bringing up unnecessary emotions. Nope.

    November 23, 2015
  • Lekan

    I can soo relate to this! Nice one, its an emotionally intelligent peace, eloquently expressed in simplicity. AWESOME one Bro.!

    November 23, 2015
  • kez

    Brings back beautiful memories ,,,,,, I love your artistic approach to this , what I loved most of all was the rush this piece gave me, which was well accompanied by the music. I’m not much of a novel reader, i prefer movies, which is why i may not do so well in using your bio to understand you, but at least this has given me an idea a of your person and i can totally relate!

    November 23, 2015
  • Sharon

    This is a beautiful piece, and it carries alot of emotion n strong feeling

    November 24, 2015
  • Damilola

    Just thank you for the song.

    November 24, 2015
  • mz Wilson

    Very wonderful write-up. You just gave words and coherence to the emotions of many which they couldn’t piece together. I can identify. A friend actually sent me this link, but I think he wanted me to read it for other purposes and not exactly my project. I hope you get over this soon, but it’s really not safe to be just friends. Coz y’all would become friends with benefit. And dats even worse than being just friends. Alrightie, I guess i’ld check out your other articles. K bye!

    November 27, 2015
  • Shaded

    I’m a ‘siddon-look-sipping-palmie’ kinda babe here. Cavey, you just had to make me comment.
    wow!
    wow!
    wow!
    It’s true that we have the ability to love time and time again. The pain from the first major heartbreak just never truly heals completely. Although my case was different, I can relate to the pain beautifully expressed here. I died, came back to life but never as the same.

    x.o.x.o

    November 27, 2015
  • Wow…
    One..Am speechless.
    Two. ..I so can relate. It brings back so much memories.
    and to have a love that that leaves you breathless ..you cant trully describe. .and yes..you rather have a piece of that person than not having any at all. This hit’s close to home. And such pain can’t be made up. I should know.

    Btw. .you should stop by and check this blog out..

    http://Www.sweetspectives.wordpress.com

    November 27, 2015
  • Ibiela

    Loved the song. Thanks for that.

    December 24, 2015
  • Dammy

    I just had to comment on this, fantastic piece bro. I cried when my Nysc babe left me, I’d turn on the radio so loud to mask my sobs. I became the target of every breakup songs , deleted songs cos almost all reminded me of her. It’s not so easy to move on trust me.

    December 31, 2015
  • I’m crying now.
    Silently, so i don’t wake my roommate.
    I cry easily – for mundane things sometimes. But i held in my tears even as I read through – and listened. I didn’t realize it’s because I was unconsciously hoping you were one epic fictional writer with a jaw dropping ability to wring our emotions like wet towels.

    Then I went through a few comments. And i saw the quip about this tale’s reality and Lagos heat. And then youtube skipped to the next track by the Piano guys (Love Story – Taylor Swift), and the tears came as I began typing out this comment.
    But they have ceased to flow now. Because my tears have almost become so common place to me, that even they can’t seem to do justice to how sad this makes me. I thought maybe anger hindered my flood gates but no – I’m so sad I can’t even weep.

    I know tons about opting for one variation of pain because the torture of enduring it becomes appealing in the light of the other options available to us.

    But I won’t ask what happened. I won’t ask why it didn’t work out. Those are things to be talked about and not commented or sent via Whatsapp. And what are the chances eh?

    So me and my drying streaks of saltwater, will save this somewhere safe and simply utter a prayer.
    May you get your happily ever after.
    In Jesus’ name. Amen. <3

    January 15, 2016
    • Cavey

      Hello dearest Kwiksie,
      Thank you for your kind words and especially for the prayer. Thank you.

      I really am sorry for causing you sadness and making you cry. Thank goodness your roommate didn’t wake up though, you’d have had a lot of explaining to do ?.

      Answering your unasked question, i said it all in my words; ‘Gia’ happened. DM me sometime and I’d try and answer your questions.

      From your words, i can tell that you write and if you don’t, you should. Not many people use words like ‘quip’ & phrases like “wring our emotions like wet towels’
      I know a Kwiksie. Not very well but enough to know she’s amazing and I’m starting to think the secret lies in the name.

      January 15, 2016
      • Hehehe. Yeah, I write.
        Force of habit.
        Or should that be passion? #shrugs
        Uhm, I would DM you actually…if i could figure out how to do that here. I even clicked on the green face sticking out its tongue at me but I got nothing so…#scratcheshead & #shrugsagain. I’m at a loss.

        Now, about this namesake I am yet to meet…I’m super curious. The only namesake I’ve come to accept (after getting over the fact that I’m not the only Kwiksie in existence), is the Arabian race horse from Poland. I know right. Wins its races too, I think. You should google that baby. 😀 But yeah, we’re probably all just amazing like that.
        Thanks though. Hang in there.

        January 17, 2016
        • Cavey

          *chuckle*
          Really? The face?
          My Twitter handle is on my profile but incase you don’t find it, its @AsToldByCavey

          January 17, 2016
  • Still my best Piece by you! I cant get over it TBH

    April 12, 2016
  • Abidemi

    WoW!

    April 12, 2016
  • Adrienne

    This is ????????. Words can’t describe how beautiful this is. Although it brings back memories of 3 years ago which I try so hard not to remember because of the hurt and pain that comes with it (yes that long & I do understand how you feel to an extent) this is lovely. The song is gold and your feelings were real.
    If you don’t mind me asking, what did Gia do exactly? (Well, one day we will be close and get to talk about “stuff” like this).

    Till then, I pray you find genuine love again or even better.

    Sincerely,

    Me.

    November 19, 2016
  • obubu

    I can reas this a hundred times and still feel every emotion like its the first time.

    November 26, 2016
  • DD

    I read this, with music. It reminded me of someone I know…or used to know. The emotion in this piece is so raw and real. I hope you heal.

    December 27, 2019
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