Questions On My Mind While Praying In Church
Last week, I found myself on my knees, in a rather awkward position. Fam, I was in church… you people can be so rotten sometimes. Anyway, so here I am on my knees (because standing for those long prayer points get as e be), trying to focus on the prayer point and not thinking about the thousand (del- usually inappropriate) things that suddenly take over my mind during the service. And as the preacher fires the shot on the prayer and everyone begins praying frivolously, I found myself feeling rather awkward, thinking to myself “Damn Yo, where do these enemies even come from? Am I the only one that doesn’t feel like I have enemies? I mean honestly, who’s really thinking about me”?
I soon realized that the “prayer for enemies” point is not the only thing I have questions on. Now, don’t get me wrong- I’m not saying that people don’t have enemies, or that there aren’t people out there that don’t like me. Shit, I don’t even like me sometimes so assuming that I’m loved by everyone would not only be incorrect, but rather arrogant of me. However, would I say that I have enemies? I mean do I really believe that there is some potential generational curse or someone constantly plotting for my downfall, that I must now usher serious prayer against? Honestly Fam, I don’t have the answers
because Jesus does I mean, I’m going to pray anyway in case of incasity (you can never be too sure about these things) but sometimes praying for the absolute ‘perishing’ of my enemies just seems a bit umm… extreme?
I also find that in the non-Nigerian churches I’ve attended, these prayer points are quite different. I don’t know if its that because of our culture, and all the stories we’ve heard, we’ve become accustomed to these types of prayer points and for that reason, don’t find them odd? Is the personification and tendency to humanize enemies relative only to us as Nigerians?
And am I the only one that thinks the time allocated to these prayer points can be cut short? I mean seriously, in how many different ways can I pray about the same thing? How am I not supposed to listen to my neighbor and steal some fresh prayer ideas from them?
Also, why do pastors claim two more prayer points and then give us five/now ask if we are tired? Oh and why do these points often rhyme? Like “Oh God, turn my ridicule to miracle, commotion to promotion”, etc. Guys, I need answers.
But before we get there, what are some of your observations and questions?